Give me some time

Give me some time to find my thoughts,
Collect these lines, and label all my feelings;
All I feel, still nothing I can name.
Sometimes it’s hard to understand
Just which comes first, the words or meanings.
Burning questions, “Does it all add up the same?”
Is a tear only a drop of spray
Quickly cast off as it collides
Upon the shore of quiet smiles
That somehow I can’t seem to find?
Give me some time to find my thoughts.I
t’s funny how they scoff and rule the kneeling,
Stand elusive, close enough to crush, refusing to be tamed.
Or maybe not to understand
The heart is grace unbridled and
To fill with wonder is to leave the soul unchained.
In that world: I wash away
And drown myself inside your eyes;
That quiet shore of whispered smiles
Only your heart and mine can find.